Month: January 2019

LONDON LIFE (part 1)

THE UPS AND DOWNS OF A MUSICIAN IN A BIG CITY

This was taken in my new neighborhood, on the first week upon arriving in London on a hot Semptember day

I lived in London for about 3 years in my early to mid 20s.

I moved there because of my music, as everyone told me that London is the center of contemporary music in Europe.

Well it probably is, but since every musician who wants to make a living through music goes to live there, it has become almost impossible to get noticed through the crowds of upcoming musicians.

Although it was a unique experience and I learnt a lot from it.

I rented a room in the attic of a typical old English styled house. I lived there with 4 other people, mostly young women.

A few months after moving in an envelope arrived in the mail for the landlord (who did not live in London), with the words “universal music group” written on it, I got intrigued and asked my roommates what was it about. I was told that the landlord used to be a musician in the British synth pop band Eurythmics, and that Annie Lennox herself once dined in the same kitchen I was eating in…

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HOW MUSIC SAVED ME FROM BECOMING A DRUG ADDICT

why I am straight edge and always will be

shaula music, music in 432hz

As a teenager I had all the “right” personality traits to become a drug addict.

I suffered from severe anxiety, social anxiety and depression. My body and muscles were constantly tense, (which gave a lot of physical pain) I had no self esteem nor self confidence of any kind. Many people with my similar problems ended up addicted to drugs, either prescription drugs or illegal ones.

However I was lucky enough that it didn’t happen to me, the reason was: MUSIC.

I fell in love with music at a very young age. I always responded positively when positive music was played around me.

When I became a teenager and had my first portable cassette player, (this was the late 90s early 00s, the internet wasn’t that popular yet, nor used for music). I started deciding which kind of music I wanted to listen to, and I always got a “high” from my favorite songs.

Around the age of 12 I got even closer to music, by actually starting to write my own melodies and songs on my electric keyboard.

I was lucky enough that life gave me music instead of drugs and alcohol

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WHY I DISAGREE WITH VIOLENT AND NEGATIVE ENTERTAINMENT

One of the main reasons I started writing positive music was that I was sick and tired of being surrounded by entertainment that promotes negativity, violence and aggression. In today’s world unfortunately there is a lot of bad stuff going on, and I believe we shouldn’t be reminded about it, even when we just want to relax and feel good, through music and movies.

I would like for my music to be that moment in a person’s life when they can forget about the problems of the world and feel positive and safe.

VIOLENT VIDEO GAMES AND THE DEVELOPING BRAIN

My downstairs neighbors’ son is 14 years old. I know that being a teenager is pretty hard, especially emotionally, but sadly my neighbors are doing everything possible to screw up that poor child as much as possible…

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AN ARTIST’S JOURNEY TO OVERCOME CHRONIC DEPRESSION

shaulamusic.com

I believe in introspection and self analysis.

It’s a fancy statement for saying I believe we should look inside ourselves more often than not.

Today’s world is extroverted, and everything happens outside of us. Therefore when we have a problem we look for solutions outside instead of inside.

When it comes to depression the problem is in the way we are inside. Depression is not a natural state, one is not simply born depressed, even if there are genetic factors that might make a person more prone to depression than others. It doesn’t mean it’s normal to suffer from depression.

More often than not the problem is with the way we see the world. We tend to highlight the negative things instead of the positive ones. 

For example every time I went to an audition with my music and got rejected I suffered emotionally for days. I used to go as far as to say I am never going to make music again, or I started deleting my songs from my computer (thankfully I always kept a back up copy somewhere)…

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FIGHTER! THE EMPOWERING SONG IN 432hz

There are still times in my life when I have a relapse into depression. It usually happens when nothing seems to go right in my life.

I start having the same old negative thoughts and I fall into a really bad mood.

During these times the only thing that helps me is music, but not just any kind, specifically positive music.

My very own favorite is probably the song “FIGHTER!” Which instantly makes me get back on my feet and it gives me the motivation to go on and never give up.

The background of this song is a bit interesting and somewhat special for me.

A year ago I was already through the worst of my anxieties and depression, but I felt really unstable emotionally still…

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MUSIC & SOCIAL ANXIETY (part 1)

I had suffered social anxiety ever since I was a little girl, which later caused me to isolate myself from the world, which then lead to depression and suicidal thoughts.

It’s not a fun life to experience, to say the least.

The only thing that kept me going was music, which by now is what my life is all about.

I have always been a person that tries to find solutions instead of just sitting around and waiting for the world to save me from my own hell.

I started looking for ways of overcoming my social anxiety myself.

Since I am an avid reader of pretty much anything, but especially psychology books, studies and research papers, I looked for anything that could help me deal with my problem.

 I like to think if I wouldn’t be a musician I would most definitely be a psychologist…

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WHY NEGATIVE MUSIC SHOULD BE AVOIDED BY PEOPLE THAT SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION

For most of my adolescence I suffered from social anxiety and depression, my main escape was music. 

In itself music is a wonderful thing created to heal the soul and make a person feel good. The problem starts when music is created in an unnatural way (using the wrong frequency of A=440hz instead of the natural healing A=432hz) and when its used to promote negativity.

As a teenager in the early 2000s I grew up mostly listening to Rap music and Rock music (Grunge and Nu-Metal). 

My two favorite artists were Eminem and the band Nirvana, or better yet the singer Kurt Cobain.

Disclaimer: Since these two artists are considered to be like Gods from their fans, I want to say that, I acknowledge the talent both these artists have, and they were great songwriters, but I am really saddened by the way they used their talents, and therefore I cannot write too many positive opinions about their lyrics, especially.

NIRVANA, KURT COBAIN

NETHERLANDS – NOVEMBER 25: HILVERSUM Photo of Kurt COBAIN and NIRVANA, Kurt Cobain recording in Hilversum Studios, playing Takamine acoustic guitar (Photo by Michel Linssen/Redferns)

By the time I started listening to Nirvana’s music the singer was long dead from a self inflicted bullet,

But that was not the reason I was drawn to his music. 

I was sucked in by that depressing, self loathing, victimizing feeling he conveyed through his lyrics…

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MY TRIP TO AFRICA (part 1)

sunset in zanzibar, the indian ocean

I had the opportunity to visit Zanzibar a few months ago, thanks to a friend of mine. We stayed a few weeks, but it truly was a life changing experience.

Zanzibar is an island on the east side of Africa, it’s part of Tanzania, but it has a strong arab influence, therefore the African mentality isn’t as present as it is in the in land part of Tanzania.

The flight was really stressful and anxiety inducing for me. But the most difficult part was probably the arrival to the Zanzibar airport, we left from a wintery Europe wearing heavy warm coats, and we arrived in the middle of a really hot and humid summer, which is Zanzibar’s most common weather.

As I stepped off the plane, I felt this heat and humidity hit me in the face like a wall. And for the first two days I was really mentally and physically overwhelmed.

Although on the third day I came to my senses and I started realizing where I was. The first good feeling came when I looked out of the window of the B&B where we were staying and I saw palm trees every where. That’s when I really felt I was in Africa.

coconut tree in the spice farm

Aside from all the exotic fruits, spice farms, and fresh coconuts or the incredibly “alive” nature, I really enjoyed the colorful clothes most people were wearing, especially women… 

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HE WAS THE VOICE THROUGH MY HARDEST TIMES (THE CHESTER BENNINGTON STORY)

Chester Bennington and Mike Shinoda of the band ‘Linkin Park’ seen in midtown Manhattan, New York

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I was around 9-10 years old when I first heard “In The End” by Linkin Park, I immediately fell in love with the song and the band. Throughout my adolescence while dealing with depression and social anxiety I always turned to music for comfort. Linkin Park played a really important role in that. Even though their lyrics weren’t always positive, and weren’t really giving me solutions on how to fight my depression, I can say they were a big part of my life. 

I mainly learnt to sing through Chester Bennington’s powerful rock choruses, I knew their songs back to back and had sung them thousands of times. Needless to say I was really sad when I heard of the tragic end of Chester…….may he rest in peace.

But one positive thing came out of all this, it brought more awareness on a really important issue, suicide

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